i had a bad hair day today!!! coz u knw y... I OVERSLEPT!!!! first time in my life.. i woke & got out of the house within 5 mins!!! was supposed to wake at 630 coz i had a 830 class... & this class have presentations going on from now till end of course.. & i CANT b late for tis tutor! really lo.. first time in my life i rushed till like tat... if it were other lessons.. i might still b able to have a quick shower b4 i leave.. haha...
very luckily... i OPENED my eyes suddenly... for 5 secs.. i was still tinking to myself... y is the sky so bright... i JUMPED up Looked at the clock & it showed 7.50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was like.. SHIT!!!
then i quickly went to brush my teeth & asked my mum to call linda immediately coz i knew she shld b at the busstop waiting for me... then i changed & dashed out of the house...
LUCKILY there wasnt a massive jam like last week... & i reached the class at 8.25!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... paying for car park fees again... can u imagine! this is the first time when i cut & cut & cut lanes... haha...
anyway y did i oversleep??? thanx to my lovely phone.. i dun knw what happen to it.. but it simply SHUT me OFF & REFUSED TO ON AGAIN!!! went to the service centre during break today.. willl get it back soon... & the thing i NEED to do NEXT is to BUY AN ALARM CLOCK! coz i realised DUN RELY on PHONE!!!!!!!!!!
tml got a test.. nO time to study coz prepare for presentation... then thurs is my presentation.. & i have not decided whether i wan to do A or B... arghhhhhhh.............. SaVe Me...................... cant wait for cny to come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xiuxiu; 6:06 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
i knw i wun b happy celebrating my bd tis yr... for 20 over yrs.. tis is the worse bd tat i am ever going thru.. i knw i sound pessimistic... but u all dun understand de... really... but i will try my best to try & do the things u all ask me to do de.. TrY..........
but i m lucky i still have frens asking if i wanna go out... so i will still go out... coz i dun wanna stay at home.. coz it feels much much worse n painful... sometimes.. u cant even trust ur own family.... mum jus cant understand tat its so so sooo difficult to find that trust back... partly coz i nvr told her everything tat happened too & so it seems to be my fault as usual... she even cried in front of me.. i actually felt so angry...
on the same day its my presentation.. i really hope everything goes well for me..
pray for me... stand by me..
xiuxiu; 10:55 AM
did a confrontation in front of my poly frens today.. finally confession coz of evidence.. i thank god for giving me a chance to find out... although its too long a time.. but at least i did find out..
really cant describe what i m going thru.. really.. no one will ever understand what i had been going thru for more than a yr... no one will ever.. i thank god for not giving me the feel of dying yet.. for this period of time.. but it did give me the feeling of guys cant b trusted at all... its farr tooo scary to me already... i m really freaking out...
finally its the end of everything.. the end... as much as i din wan it to b.. it did.. sometimes i ask y is this happening to me... but... i knw i cant do anything... coz god made it tis way for me.. everything happens for a reason.. which i wun b able to know...
i jus wan to get on with my life peacefully.. i have lotsa things on hand with me nt being able to concentrate at all & i jus hate myself for being like tat.. i jus need to pull myself back on to the right track...
xiuxiu; 12:21 AM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
i m seriously gonna suffer from a nervous breakdown soon.. i dun knw how much longer i can take tis... its affecting my work now...
the truth shall be revealed soon...
xiuxiu; 10:50 AM
Friday, January 25, 2008
tis post is for u knw who...
if u got the guts to do such illegal stuff...
have the guts to admit it...
i was told to report to police.. but i din wan to blow things up.. i m still giving u a chance & waiting for u to confess...
xiuxiu; 11:12 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
real upset... being accused of something which i nvr did or say tis morning... went to class tis morning... put my bag on the floor at the usual place.. went out to look for linda.. when i cme back.. nigel was sitting at the back & i jus casually asked.. 'how come u r sitting here' coz normally he sat with me n fren... he pointed to R.. so i walked in front asking R 'ehh how come u sitting here' & she said coz she & joan realised tat the tutor will sit behind & they did not wan to sit with him.. i said 'ehh hw can like tat' with me still smiling away... R did suggest tat she wanna change back but i said 'nvm la sit already'..
then i went out of class again.. was jus standing outside the class.. & i even smiled at R when she turned & lookd at me thru the glass pane...
went back to class & realised indhu was sitting on my place... dun understand y too.. but when i went over.. i realised that there wun b enuff seats for me n fren.. so i jus took my bag & walked to the back where the tutor is sitting...
then when fren came, tutor hinted that there werent enuff seats.. so i told fren tat.. we move IN FRONT to the first table then.. so we sat there... coz today is presentation.. so the presenter would prefer us to join other tables... so i asked fren to sit with them AS i knw there wun b enuff seats for me anyway.. i joined ANOTHER table...
jus when lesson is going on.. i realised tat R started crying... din realised what was said in between... then after class... i realised... i was accused of scolding R & saying 'Y r u doing this AGAIN!' ........... i totally din remember tat i said tat... & i really din felt tat i was harsh COZ i do knw whatever i said to her.. i was smiling away & i even say NVM when she said she wanted to change back...
i was real real real upset.. becoz more & more pple knew coz she cried again when she went to the canteen... & i was jus being accused of something which i nvr do... real upset... i m already frustrated enuff with my own stuff & tis gotta happen.. & its jus a minor thing... MAYBE it was a misunderstanding but i really HATE the feeling of being accused...
pple who knew me.. shld knw i dun jus throw my temper at my frens tat easily unless u really got the ability to make me damn upset... if u dun knw that.. then mayb u r nt my fren after all... & before u jump into any conclusions tinking tat i M MAKING A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT.. mayb u shld have came & asked for my side of the story first alright??
bt jus had a talked with R... things r ok nw.. whats over is over.. dun dwell on it...
xiuxiu; 9:20 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
mood is bad... sooo bad.. dun knw y... jus feel soooo uncomfortable... helpppppppp.............
xiuxiu; 9:30 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
went jay's concert jus nw.. so so ooooooooooooooooo nice can.. i m already missing it when i stepped out of the stadium.. i regretted.. i dun knw y i nvr bring cam oso.. coz i tot i will just enjoy the singing... the meixiang even better still.. she brought cam BUT she left it in my car!!!!!! & she was lazy to go get it !!!! arghhhhhhhhh........... so regret can.. i nvr bring my CameraMan along tonight!!!! argh argh! if nt i would have lotsa lotsa nice pics... haha... so i got no choice but to take it using my phone.. quality is of coz nt as good as cam.. bt jus view it ba.. sui bian la hor..
i know quality really bad la.. bt no choice... what to do...
after tat went supper with meixiang at newton... argh... reach there liao then my cameraman call me to eat dou hua.. i soooo wan to eat can but u a bit late la.. nxt time can call earlier or nt... haha.... stop eating will u xiuxiu!!
enuff of enjoyment for the day... do some work tml xiu!!!
xiuxiu; 1:42 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
i m back... after being MIA for some time... thanx for ur concerns, my frens.. i m fine.. no worries...
spent quite a lot these 2 days.. bought new yr dress.. bras again... at robinsons... mango top.. finally i bought from mango.. then tis morning went OG & i bought levis jeans!! finally i can wear the lady's style le!!! so happy can... u all wun understand de la.. heh... then got 20% rebate so i got 2 pairs of shoes.. so happy lo... gotta stop spending le...
purpose to go bugis tis morning was to pray.. end up bought things at OG.. prayed today.. & qiu qian oso... i felt much better after praying.. hope my qian is gonna come true.. hope everyone will have a good yr ahead... the yr of the rat i mean...
gotta start working on my assignments real soon... got a presentation on my bd can! but its good la.. after presentation i can go celebrate my bd!! erm... with who ah... dun knw... whos available?? pls date me la... can enjoy my cny without having to worry abt presentation too... then soon... practicum is coming... which i m definitely not looking forward to.. 4 weeks more to all my due dates for assignment... buck up xiu!!!
oh ya.. dad is coming bck tonight from bkk! yeah!!!
xiuxiu; 5:43 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
xiu.. u gotta buck up.. really... wake up from ur dreams!!!
xiuxiu; 12:11 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
ZerO eXpEctAtiOn bRinGs zErO dIsApPoInTmEnT.. HoW maNy CaN dO iT???
xiuxiu; 10:23 PM
Monday, January 07, 2008
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.
xiuxiu; 12:19 AM
Sunday, January 06, 2008
this photo shld b up last week on anita's actual day.. bt i tink sent in too late le.. only managed to shw it today... ah heng call me early in the morning to tell me.. hw cme anita on newspaper ah.. haha... it occupied the biggest space lo!! haha...
its signed off by marcus... scolded by me.. bt he said he signed off as ace@wrk bt dun knw y they only post as marcus... bt its ok la... hope both of u will stay happy 4ever k... :)
xiuxiu; 6:24 PM
just came back from marcus's chalet at sembawang... dad waited for me again... hopped into my car... went to park the car with me.. & walked home together.. thanx dad...
y m i so late??????????? becoz ... i oso dun knw y today just 1 cup of vodka... makes me headache... its not the usual case lo!!! anyway jian was massaging my head for me.. bt it jus doesnt seem to get well haha.. rested there for quite some time... watched them played cards.. then when my headache is gone... i came home.. journey was kinda scary.. coz there ulu ulu one.. when i walked to my car.. i was erm... so scare tat i might see something tat i dun wanna see.. becoz theres NO LIGHTS... i slowly walked to my car... scare to on my headlights becoz in front is ALL TREES!!!!!!!!!! bt luckily i m home... safely.. haha...
lotsa feelings came over me jus nw.. dun knw hw to describe.. i m jus not feeling good... esp after i drank tat vodka... lying on the bed.. eyes closed... haiz...
anyway... wl brought jackson along today.. girl.. i can see tat both of u r really loving.. guess he is really good to u... tats a good thing.. hope u will b happy 4ever... dun worry abt bringing him to our outings k... & dun wry abt me k... :)
oh ya.. forgot to say.. happy birthday gor... my bro's bd today hehe... mine's coming soon too! pple whos reading.. dun pretend u dun knw k... ask me out la k... boredzzzz... & i m waiting to get the gift tat i wan hor.... from you.... hehe... dun pretend.. if nt i go bombard ur blog!!!
xiuxiu; 1:41 AM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... finally something to b happy abt... i got my DS card le........... loaded games in BUT to realise cannot play........... remember student telling me need software.. haha.... went to the net to search.. then nxt error... hardware not compatible... searched for error msg again... haha.. realised tat i was erm... silly? haha... put chinese version in instead haha... finally got it done... bt realised tat the games erm... in jap?? haha... gotta find some eng version ones... hehe... but tis jus comes in handy.. coz i will have 5 hrs of break every tuesday!!!!! hehe... linda will b so happy too!!!!!
yesterday helped marcus to get some things for his chalet.. went to collect the psp & sent him to chalet... had a treat from him at yacht club... 3 people 80 woh.... kinda ex.. bt nice... i miss the cereal prawns... later going to his bbq... b maid again.. gotta get some things for him b4 i go.. bt ok la since i sooo free at home... haha.. he very happy lo... got new psp to play with... haha... bt i play first la.. its with me nw!!! i m going to load whatever i wan inside! haha... but erm.. i dun knw where to find games.. i only knw my ds games.. haha... so i jus load songs bah...
xiuxiu; 1:26 PM
Friday, January 04, 2008
i m in a very bad bad mood... & i mean a very bad one..
cant u pple jus stop doing tis to me?????????????
whats is wrg with me exactly????????????????????
& whats wrg with u pple?????????????????????????
its jus sooo difficult to put on a smiling face...
things arent going well............. at home........ & .......... sigh.......
sch reopens in few days time............ portal cant log in..... dun knw hws my timetable...
jus feel so sianzz.......
mum once again.. did what she always did when she have probs.. made me confused all over again.. haiz.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................