mY wOrLd Of ThOuGhTs

2010-08-27T10:13:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i updated my blog... i guess not many blog nowadays ever since fb is being used... i wonder if anyone still comes to my blog, hoping to c new updates...

suddenly tot of blogging coz of something i received... blogging was a way of relieving my stress, sadness, happiness 3 years ago.. thoughts are running inside my head, thinking of the events that i went through for the past 3 years.. some events will still appear on my mind every now n then... i only hope life goes on well for everyone now.. although there's always this question on my mind.. 'why??' i guess it will just stay with me & I wonder when i can really forget abt that question...

BusY bUsy Busy.............

2009-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

hi all!!!! has been ages since i last updated... been busy & had nO time to update....

cny passed liaoz... how many ang paos did u collect???

i will still b very busy with my work.. everyday i wake at 530... go sch... n come back late too... at least 10 hours of work per day.. but i m happy... happy with my level tis yr.. happy with the colleagues now.. they are really a fun batch... tats y time passes soooo fast now...

however... of coz.. i get angry everyday as usual... with my kids... jus hope tat things really go smoothly this year...

nothing much to write.. jus update some photos on the slide... take a look bah... :)

2008-12-17T16:48:00.003+08:00

went JB yesterday with sch colleagues... had kfc for lunch.. its cheap & taste slightly different...

din buy much.. coz really on budget.. but i was really tempted to get the wii.. coz its cheappppppppppppppp.......... &....... &........... haha... bt really on budget.. hah..

anyway ate at the hawker there.. food not bad... & its cheappppppp....... so soooo cheapp..... & the movie tickets are cheap woh... mayb will go in & watch movie some day.. haha...

sooooooooooo fullllllllllll.......... gained quite a few kg for the past few weeks... started exercising liao.. mus JIA YOU!!!

PHONE!!!

2008-12-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

oh ya oh ya! FINALLY i GOT my phone!!!! after much difficultieS! cozzzzzzzz.. my previous phone.. which is less than a yr old.. was giving me probs.. cant receive smses... once it stopped responding to me.... so i had to ...... then as my contract is not even 12 mths old... they did not allow me to recontract when i CALLED to ask... TWICE...

so last sat... i was going to IMM to shop shop with dear... so an idea jus flashed in my mind.. i was tinking y dun i take the vouchers i redeemed along with me.. & go starhub shop to ask... since its like 2 weeks left... i din hve much hope la.. bt i went to ask... & they said they will TRY & see if the system pass! haha i was soooooooooooo happy... few mths without a 'proper' phone.. haha... so in the end.. IT PASSED! & i managed to get my new phone!! my wonderful powerful phone!! thanx to frens who sent me stuff... its really fun.. frens who knws me shld knw that i m really krasy over tat... haha... this is it!!

i am still having fun exploring & playing with it everyday! :)

updatessssssssssss........

2008-12-15T15:34:00.003+08:00

long long tIme no update.. coz i hve been enjoying a lot!!! went hongkong 3 weeks ago.. stayed for a week... everyday oso dessert.. dessert.. eat eat eat.... shop shop shop... tats all i did... heh...

then jus came bck frm KL on wed... joined monique & joanna as the rent was really really cheappppppppppppp............ spent again...

all the photos are in facebook.... a bit difficult to post more here.. so jus post a few only.. :p

tml going to jb with sch colleagues...

sch reopens in 2 weeks times.... time to xianz again...

what a short update... hah..

2008-11-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

quite some time since i last updated my blog... really had no time to do tis recently.. finally tml is the last day of the term... & its going to end with an annual musical frm my sch... new experience.. hope i will enjoy it..

anyway today was the last day of sch for the kids... a gal in my class.. actually bought a pooh hp pouch for me! i only taught them for around 4 mths... really din expect tis.. from her... & another boy gave me a small gift... what he gave doesnt matter... at least i knw.. some kids really appreciate what i did.. esp when the boy got scolded by me almost everyday.. haha... n he was really sad tat the term is ending & i wun b there for him next yr... :p

activities coming up after next week... waiting to go for my holidays!!! yea yea yea!!!

gotta slp nw.. long day tml... updates coming up sooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnn!! :)

Hao & Tif Wedding

2008-10-20T22:05:00.004+08:00

have been v busy with sch n stuff... sooo many things to do.. nvr nvr ending... bt thank goodness its coming to an end soon... 4 more weeks left....

attended a wedding last sat.. was the emcee for the night together with dear.. nervous bt luckily it went well i assume... haha... anyway.. jus hoping for the holidays to come soon.. i cant wait to FLY!!!

2008-08-14T16:58:00.002+08:00

sooooooooo long nvr update my blog le... have been busy busy... in school busy... come home oso got things to do..... luckily tis week is a short week.. monday sch holiday... taught for 2 days.. n its PSLE oral again... feeling kinda tired nw... woke at 5+ to go school... then lunched with colleagues and back home to rest.... waiting for the time to pass faster... then will go out for dinner... :)

nxt week is a very 'heavy' week.. everyday gotta go early to do marking.. coz its CA2 week.. gotta mark mark mark.. revise revise revise... bt I CAN DO IT!!! :)

WeEK 4..

2008-07-18T20:06:00.003+08:00

WeeK 4 has ended for you.. but not me... still gotta report to sch for cultural night tml... wonder why i m so free to write my blog nw?? coz i was supposed to bring home some marking BUT.. i FORGOT to put in my bag!!! its still on my table!!!

boringggggg... bt no la.. gotta do my LP still...

tomorrow will be a better day.. coz i will look forward to sunday!!

seeya!!

2008-06-29T15:13:00.003+08:00

me survived week 1.... after much struggle... i wonder.. how i m going to struggle in the coming weeks... always looking forward to holidays n weekends...

bt i have to....

2008-06-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

back to sg.... so nt used to it... so sad... coz... dun wanna count down...

2008-06-07T21:04:00.003+08:00

joash 1 yr old bd celebration today... he received soooooooo many presents and ang baos... so fast he is one yr old liao.. he sure enjoyed himself today & surprisingly, he finally allowed my 2nd uncle to carry... he used to cry everytime he saw him.. hah.. & he oso allowed marcus to carry him.. haha.. finally... some pics for viewing...

2008-06-04T21:16:00.001+08:00

sad... just feel very sad.... cant avoid it but will overcome it asap...

first day...

2008-05-26T19:13:00.001+08:00

tiredzz.. long day today.. bt nth to say... keeping an open mind.. praying hard for a higher qualification in teaching.. praying hard...

2008-05-25T10:06:00.002+08:00

had fun at linda's place last night... coz her hb bought wii!!!!!!!!!! then went down to amk and they bought mario kart! fav mario! and i bought the xtra steering wheel so tat i can play together with her... came hm n played n played n played with her.. until late.... nt good... haha... going hm today liao... tml going to new sch liao... all the best to everyone of us...

2008-05-20T23:09:00.003+08:00

had been a 'busy' n tiring week... busy with those talks talks n talks.. & busy with going out with frens... had a good time at mind cafe with my nie frens last wed... & finally finally met up with anita, jian, xiang n marcus after such a longggggg time on saturday.. then xiang suggested to go oriental and chill out... went up there... cannot go in.. coz marcus wearing bermssss...... haha... so end up went to harry's at esplanade... marcus said to go hm after dinner.. but the rest wanted to 'see' dear so end up nvr go hm lo.. nt until 2am...

then i went EC on sunday with dear.. bt i took 2 hrs to reach there... bt its alright.. i 'enjoyed' the bus rides and walk... hiaks... had dinner at waraku... BUT it was a fullllllllllllll one.. coz first time i ate different kinds of desserts lo... bt its soooooooooo wonderfully nice... esp the white truffle...

windy tat night... & lots of pple pitched tents.. & i mean lotssssssssss... long time since i go cycling and play at the beach... going to have 1 nxt sat... sooooooooooooo looking forward to it...

went to watch movie n shop around today... spent a 'sum' of money.. gotta ctrl for my taiwan trip liaoz............. everyday is jus eat eat eat... ctrlllllllllllll.... gaining weight liao.... dun feed me!!!!

anyway had fun these few days going out with different groups of pple... enjoying myself nw b4 everything starts again.... :)

2008-05-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

last 2 weeks in NIe started yesterday... it was boring.. boring.. boring.. NIE food is still the best lo... everything was boring today except that i got saboed by some frens... to go up on the stage... with him.... those frens definitely had fun lo...

today went army museum n discovery centre.. as usual...

hope tml will be a better day.. heh.. bt.. tis is all i can treasure.. right nw... :p

anyway.. i m me.. & i will always be me still... nthing changes... :)

2008-05-07T19:48:00.002+08:00

was jus feeling happy yesterday... & today... received the bad news...

got my posting already... very very very very very upset with it... dun knw hw to describe it...

posted to the sch which is the reason y i quit in the past... really dun knw what to say.. i can only hope there is still a slight chance of saving it.. due to all the 'supporters' i have in sch...

if it really cant be helped.. then i really really hope that i can b offered for crossover.. even though my results are not fantastic.. bt i m really hoping for the best...

praying hard... help me can? :'(

2008-05-06T21:45:00.003+08:00

soooo 'busy' with marking n marking corrections these 2 days.. 3 more days!!!!!!!!!!! & i will be free for 'a while'... heh...

anyway.. went up sg flyer on sunday.. hehe.. nice experience.. heh happy day... havent been feeling happy for a very long time.. i m really getting on very well and happy nw.. for the past

1 month esp... thank you sooooooooo much....

2008-04-30T21:09:00.003+08:00

tiredzzzzzzzzzz day.. sports day today... morning had lessons.. then sports day till 5pm.. heh.. i got 2nd again.. for the 3 legged-race.. together with the other 2 trainees & our CTs.. hehe.. same as 2 yrs ago... hehe.. so happy tml is PH... can go out again.. heh.. cant wait for it to come.. & dun wan it to end.... :)

2008-04-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

today is saturday again.... 1 more day and its a new week again.. bt happy that its gonna b kinda short week for me.. followed by the last week.. gotta do lotsa revision and try my best to help my kids b4 i leave... when i leave.. its gonna b their exams... hopefully.. i will nt mess up their results.. hehe...

cant wait for tml to come.. but i dun wan it to end either... how contradicting...

must go do my LP now...

soon sooonnnnnnnnnnnn....................

2008-04-23T21:41:00.001+08:00

xiuxiu is down with fever again.. & tis time.. 1 more.. flu... coz the aircon in the staffroom was very cooooooooooooolllllldddddddddddd................. already wore jacket bt i still came bck with fluuuuuuuu............ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............. whats wrg with meeeeeeeeeee..............

its the time to enjoy now lo...... but..... saddddzzzzzzzz...........

hope i can get well soon....... :(

2008-04-23T09:06:00.002+08:00

xiuxiu had been down for the past 2 days... went to 2 docs.. for some reasons... so many things not done... today die die oso must go bck sch.. although the throat seems to be more sore than the past 2 days... & headache doesnt seem to go away.. & i tink i losing my voice.. i just hope to get well reallllllllllll soooonnn... dun knw hw i m gonna talk in school today...

i wannnn to get welllllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!

friday where r uuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-20T15:29:00.002+08:00

another week has passed................... i mean another weekend has passed soooo quickly......... when is the nxt one coming??? 1 more full week of teaching.. then its 3 day week the following.. n the final!! kinda like missing the kids liaoz... i really like tat class of mine... hw i wished to have them for my one whole year.... bt gotta leave le...

anyway.. jus cant wait for fri to cme... celebrate monique's bd.. an excuse for a day to relax again.. hehe...

jia you jia you!!!

2008-04-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

i finished all my observations!!!!!!!!!! finally!!! but cant b too happy yet.. coz VP might walk in anytime frm nw till next week.. so.. gotta b alert! heh... 3 weeks left.. 3 weeks!!! n off we go! back to NIE.. went to nie on mon to hand up the sci assignment... was taking a stroll slowly... around there... haha... sooooo missed the times there lo............. just cant wait...

next week will be fun coz will b celebrating monique's bd... i cant wait for it to come!!

then its sports day then labour day!! hooray!!

but before tat.. waiting for this fri to come again... :)

although still got LPs to do.. n things to plan.. at least... can feel more relaxed nw...

it will b over soon for u too! i will jia you with u!!! muacks! :)

2008-04-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

finally finished my observation for sup today!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! i m really soooooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyy!!!

however, i am still left with 3 obs with my CTs... bt it will finish soon!!! very soon!!! then the rest of the days can relax A BIT liao.... i only meant A BIT... hehe..

really cant wait to get out of my hse.. to go walk walk.. been sitting n sitting n sitting.. my hips r gonna get bigger n bigger again!! :(

its gonna be friday soon again!!! my fav day of the week! i jus wanna go outttttttttttttt... :)

JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

2008-04-06T12:55:00.003+08:00

sunday again... fri .. sat.. always pass so fast nowadays... monday nt yet started bt i m already looking forward to fri.. aiyo.... jia lat hor... wrk hard pls!!! been slacking for the past 2 days... jia you!!!

my 'sister', marcus sayssss he wantss updates... i already updated le ma.. u dun have facebook oso not my fault.... :p

2008-04-02T20:54:00.003+08:00

5 down... 5 more to go... hope to finish it asap.. must continue to preserve my energy.. mus take care! pple at hm falling sick one by one.. sis in law is sick.. bro is sick... dad hmm.. mum soon too... BUT I CANT!!

tml's thurs liaoz... then its FRIDAY!! yea!!! just cant wait for it to come... :p

gonna change my blogskin after my prac.. i knw some pple having probs clicking the eggs.. including myself.. heh.. gonna change soon lo.. patient... :)

2008-03-30T18:17:00.005+08:00

its mon soon again... apr has no public holidays.. hah.. bt theres sports day for me!!

busy & stress days again...

but.. it will be FRIDAY again!! yeaaaaaaaa......... only thing to look forward too now... :p

comforting myself...

4 weeks of hard work left.. 2 weeks of relaxed work i think..

frens!! jia you!!

oh ya.. watched rule#1 on fri... erm... the sound effect scares me.. nt the scenes... bt quite lame la... haha.. fiona is really... poor thing la.. like xtra like tat...

but i enjoyed the night... :)

nxt movie... hmm...

2008-03-27T19:48:00.003+08:00

its friday tml!! 1 week has passed again! 6 weeks left though.. jia you jia you!

had sup & ct observation tis week.. relieved..

more to come... gambate everyone!!

2008-03-23T15:42:00.001+08:00

i m sad..

upset...

but.. i've tried.. to make things better... certain things i just couldnt control.. jus couldnt control what others think.. so... i only can accept it... :(

2008-03-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

finally get a chance to rest today.. coz its good friday!!! managed to finished the one needed to send to sup... sat n sun still can rush lesson plans for the week... went to watch horton today... hehe... finally watch what i wanted to watch... the elephant is soooooooo funny... esp hw he wanted to cross the bridge... haha... long time since i had a good luff... haha.... enjoyed myself lots lots today... bt tml is piaing day again.. lets jia you!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-18T19:35:00.002+08:00

first ob today.. nt satisfied with it... tested the projector b4 sch holi.. it worked well...

then it din wrk today... good thing my CT helped to get the IT guy ... bt by the time i started lesson.. it was 20 mins later liaoz..

nt very satisfied as ... i became kan cheong.. din really do what i wanted.. n i feel tat my explanation is not tat clear... mayb they din manage to learn from me.. :(

1 down.. get experience.. more to come.. mus improve!

tireDz....

2008-03-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

finally i m back home... hiaks.. after 13 hrs out... today is isetan private sale again!!! hehe.. so lucky tat it falls on sch holidays.. so i went together with linda & some other nie frens... damage damage again!!! bt still ok.. bought some facial products... 3 tops & 1 dress... time to stop again.. hehe.. helped cousin to buy a che che bag & baby G watch also...

shopped until around 12.. then went to eat lunch & watched 10 000BC... so long le then watch.. hehe... but this time i m really missing my L... havent watched.. & gonna b down soon.. guess gotta find other ways.. bt heard that it isnt tat nice...

anyway i really really wan to watch horton... rule#1 & many others... hah... i wonder when will my next movie b... coz sch reopens in 3 days time.. then its pia pia pia lesson plans & observations & 1 more final assignment due.... stresssssssssssssssssssssss................ bt we need to buck up!!!! bt definitely still need some breathing space at times... hehe...

Frens! JIA YOU!!! & thx for the company.. i enjoyed myself A LOT... muacks!!

2008-03-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

finally back home.. hehe.. after fri's outing.. went to linda's hse to stay over the weekend.. sat planned to go out with cousin & her.. then sun go IT fair..

sat shopped at town.. saw a dress... soo nice... at metro... bt soo ex can... bt i seldom see dress tat i can fit nicely la... reserved liao coz forgot to bring metro card tat day.. tues going bck to get it...

then today went to IT fair lo.. bought SD card.. wireless presenter & printer ink... lucky can claim...

thurs got isetan private sale again! again! need some tops still... CONTROL!! heh... tml mus do wrk liao.. really mus do quite a bit tml... TRYYYYYYYYY..................

2008-03-07T13:28:00.004+08:00

had to wake at 6 today... went to bed at 12+... bt i tink only managed to sleep around 2... arghhhh... y y y y y ... hah.. useless.. tots came back again.. jus couldnt get to sleep....

had to wake early coz brought the p1 kids to sentosa!! we went to underwater world & dolphin lagoon!!! although went b4 le.. bt still excited haha...

gonna rest nw.. so tat i can continue tonight.. haha.. if nt.. i tink i will stone again tonight...

2008-03-03T20:50:00.003+08:00

it has been a week since i last updated... nothing much to write... coz nO LIFE... coz busy with lesson plans & teaching... but havent been sleeping well even though i had 8 hrs of sleep everyday... dun knw y oso.. mayb mind keep tinking abt hw to teach bah...

looking forward to fri.. coz no sch.. going to sentosa with my p1 kids.. hope i dun have anything on in sch after tat... coz will b going drinking again with NIE frens... nt gonna drive tis time round hopefully... hehe...

to you: i knw u mean well by keeping me entertained everyday with ur sometimes 'lame' jokes hahaha, but try to be urself.. dun need to purposely think of jokes or topics.. i appreciate it.. really.. jus let nature takes its course, alright??

anyway... i guess i m coping well.. most of the time.. although.. it still comes back to me... will get it over soon... soon.... but i really cant b myself.. as long as it doesnt get rid from my mind... its really not easy at all...

2008-02-24T17:11:00.011+08:00

woke up early to go for the airshow today... BUT at the sea.. haha... marcus's cousin brought us.. enjoyed myself a lot... the view was great... hehe... BUT i got burnt! again! yes again! & tis time worse.. i din bring sun block.. used marcus one but.. i only applied a bit... din expect lo.. nw my whole face is red.. my arms r red.. my legs r leg... my BACK is RED... i really dun wan to get to tan lo... i wan to b fair... haha.... so sad... my shoulders is really badly burnt coz of the tan almost 4+ mths ago.... it was really badly burnt & it looks very very ugly nw... like pigments like tat... everyone was luffing at me jus nw lo... so bad.. pple already so sad liao.. still luff.. oso not i wan.. so sadz... will it get well? any remedy frm anyone pls tell me k...

some pics & videos for u...

1 more thing... argh... i tink i really gotta do something abt me being sleepy always... on my way back jus nw... i almost got into an accident again lo... was at the rightmost lane... but i dozed off i tink... i swayed all the way to the right... luckily i WOKE jus in time to turn bck... & i was really lucky lo... after tat AWAKE liaoz... dun knw hw many times le... haiz...

anyway wun b driving much from nw... for 11 weeks... tml is the day! GOOD LUCK GUYS!

2008-02-23T12:47:00.005+08:00

tiredzzzzzzzz............. jus came home nt long from linda's hse.. yesterday.. went to NIE to hand up the final 2 assignments.. phew.. all done.. hope ALL PASS WELL.. then proceeded to town... bought some clothes again.. for work... i really have TOO MANY casual ones lo... haha...

had dinner with linda... then went to M hotel.. to meet up with other NIE frens... had lotsa fun... they really can drink.. almost finished 2 bottles of chivas... BUT its cheap over there. very cheap... haha... i din drink much though.. coz i drove.. hehe... anyway stayed till 1+ then went for supper at craig road... then went to linda's hse AS if i dun.. dad n mum will b like waiting n waiting for me to cme home.. & i realised we din take the whole grp!!

slept at 4+... bt woke at 8 le.. forced myself to sleep till 10... my biological clock really messed up nw man... sianzz.. need to get bck by mon... then i left linda's without waiting for her to wake up... firstly.. dun wan to disturb her sleep la hehe.. secondly.. i was really feeling uneasy with my attire n such haha... so i left lo ... so paiseh.. end up her hb bought food for me... ehh.. owe u guys one k.. hehe..

1 more day... & we r all gonna start the journey... to where?? haha.. GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE!! HOPE WE PASS THESE 10 WEEKS WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING ITS THERE!!
& hope tat we meet up real soon again guys! :)

2008-02-21T19:53:00.004+08:00

finally completed my 2 ang mo assignments... cant believe i finished 1 of it in a day! first time in my 2 yrs in NIE i completed an assignment in a day! i wonder what grade it is going to be.. but in the meantime.. i jus wish i can enjoy myself.. need some laughter...

went to ace jus nw.. so long nvr go bck le... went to lao yu sheng.. today's the last day of cny.. asked my fav student to cme down.. he looked soo tanned nw.. hehe.. bt still hasnt grown any taller... guess the nxt time i can see them its march holidays le.. then its june... so miss them..

anita missing in the pic.. coz she had gone for her honeymoon!!!!!

then bck at home.. its lao yu sheng again.. hah.. i forgotten the number of times i lao tis yr.. guess its the MOST...

bt something nt so lucky happen jus nw woh... haizz...

btw Singapore wins bid to host 2010 YOG!! yeah!!

2008-02-19T20:16:00.007+08:00

finally finished the presentation tat i was soooooooooooooooooooooo scare yesterday.. given a topic on the day itself... for 10 mins.. & to talk continuously for 3 mins.. isnt as easy as u tink.. almost everyone in the class jus cant wait for it to finish.. & pple were jus trembling & finally it ended well for everyone...

left with 2 eng lesson plans nw.. torture ley.. ang mo ley.. worse subject tat i m in.. then mon will be going to sch officially le... hope tat everything will goes well for me.. its really gonna b real real real busy until may... BUT at the same time.. i wanna plan for my overseas trip! i need to get out of sg in june! no matter what! gonna source for pple & places soon.. so many places i wanna go.. but any kakis wan to go taipei with me?? if nt.. suggest some place to me lo.. anywhere i oso can de.. I MUST GO SOMEWHERE!! i need to go 散心.. b4 i start wrk officially!!

hope that by having prac for 10 weeks.. i can keep myself busy & i will b able to get rid of everything... from my mind... & i mean everything.. i tot it did initially.. but recently i realised that it didnt at all.. even though i pretend that it did... but it just keeps coming bck to me... even when i seem to be enjoying myself.. it will jus somehow appear on my mind.. its really nt easy to become me & me again.. bt wanna thank a fren.. although i have known u for almost 2 yrs.. its only recently tat we talked more.. thank you for always sending sms to encourage me & to check tat i m fine.. thank u..

i will get better.. with all of u around me.. it became better since a mth ago.. time heals... frens 'scolded' me... coz it really sux tis time... but i feel they wun understand de.. it will always occupy a corner in my heart.. even though... it was really cruel.. i guess tats jus me & me..

can guys still b trusted??? i fear... there r .. appearing in my life right nw.. but.. can they b trusted?? :(

2008-02-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

its happening again..

all over again...

just coming back to me again... haiz...

2008-02-16T04:04:00.002+08:00

its 4.05am in the morning on 16th feb 2008... & i m wide awake!!!!! nt sleepy at all!!! & facebooking... haha..

just came home nt long ago... went to the movies after sch today.. watched cj7 and jumper.. both were nice... funny... hehe.. enjoyed the company.. thanx for tat, fren!

then went to meet my NIE frens at MindCafe... had lotsa fun... it has been quite a long time since i enjoyed myself so much in a day... hope theres more to come! :)

thank u all... muacks!!!

2008-02-14T19:02:00.003+08:00

spent money again.. bought 1 pants & 1 top.. need it for wrk the week after... got 20 bucks rebate voucher.. so mayb nxt week go see what i can get again... need a few more then settle le... but.. broke le.. used CC first lo...

then while going home aha..... so funny la.. i drive drive drive.. then i saw this car in front of me.. haha... at first i tot my eyes were playing tricks on me.. then i drove nearer... & i realised.. haha... see for urself...

for A MOMENT.. i tot to myself.. car plates dun have SE right ???????????? haha.. then i looked carefully.. i realised its actually SFX la... then someone mus have played a trick by sticking some scrotch tape or whatever for form a E haha haha... sooooooo funny can.. when i first looked at it... then i quickly took my phone & took a pic of it lo ... hehe..

anyway.. bck hm.. time to complete my maths tonight... tryyyyyyyyyyyyyy........

2008-02-13T20:49:00.003+08:00

jus had a full full fullllll dinner again.. coz today is 人日！！！ happy birthday everyone!!!

had yusheng.. mum fried chicken wings & wu xiang.... hehe... tis its the 6th or 7th time i had yusheng i tink.. tats a lot lo... hehe...

1 more week... jus 1 more week to go.... i will miss all my frens in NIE de... hope to meet up with them occasionally... got to knw some pple better tis sem.. last sem then knw them.. bt nvm... heh..

tml starts my diet plan all over again... hehe.. i have to !!! & i gotta buy clothes! i realised mine r mostly casual wear lo.. argh... money again...

pple around me having r/s probs too... hope everything goes well for everyone k... u will get better de... dun worry... time heals...

recently got quite a few concerts coming up.. but sooo sad.. no one go with me.. really feel like going to the jeff chang's one.. loved his songs.. but... then still got angela zhang.. cao ge... mayday.... argh... hope to b able to win tickets though.. then i will have pple to go with me.. haha.. pathetic...

oh ya.. happy advanced vday to everyone... those with partners.. enjoy ur day... those without... like me.. enjoy with ur frens bah coz its also frenship day!!! bt guess i will spend it with my dear baby joash.. hehe...

2008-02-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

busy day today.. haha... went to town after sch today... watched 2 movies with linda & hb... first was kung fu dunk... funny show... reallly love jay lo... hehe.. he is jus so cute...

after tat went to wisma to get linda's bag.. shared part of it with esther for her bd.. hehe.. then went to bakerzin to eat... wahhhhhhh........... it has been a long time since i last ate nice pasta.. its niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............. the drink oso niceeeeeeeee........... & the dessert..... omg... i nvr really liked dessert... but it was.... delicioussssssssssss.......... & tonight's meal dun seem full... haha.... anyway.. happy birthday linda! we'll eat again after pract... hehe...

then went bck to cine again to catch ah long pte ltd... its such a lameeeeeeeeeeeee show... bt it was funny la.. long time since i had a good luff... nxt one to catch... cj7... dun knw if i will have time to watch it... & nxt week... L !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everything mus b completed b4 i start my prac!!! argh!!!!!

2008-02-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

saw tis from my fren's nick... feelings jus came up to me again...

爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要, 宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱我相信在世界上一定会遇到对的人出现...

i believe so...

2008-02-10T02:01:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy day today... i jus reached home and bathed... so long nvr reach home so late le... called dad to wait for me downstairs again.. then nw he cant sleep le.. coz i woke him up... haha...

went to auntie's hse in the morning... they jus loved joash so much... haha.. he is like a toy being passed around lo.. so cute.. bt the good thing is tat he is nt afraid of strangers lo... see the pics... sooo cute right... hehe...

then fetch mum & dad home.. then went to esther's house.. she PREPARED something for me lo... thank you hor mama esther... haha... got to knw some new frens today as well... nice meeting them...

then went to meet chiang to get some things for ah xiang.. reached there almost 4... & stayed till around 1... played tis dice game.. popular in pubs.. then got shw on scv one... something like bluff.. but the dice ah xiang had.. was special.. its nt 1 2 3 4 5 6.. its 9 10 J Q K A... haha.. the loser will have to drink CHANG beer... actually quite nice to drink i tink... haha.. tis is the dice...

then played in between.. i won at first k.. bt lost in the end.. bt the person who lost the most was the HOST!!! haha... bt it was very fun la... had lotsa fun there... haha... look at the lotsa money we have to try to win!!!!

2008-02-07T14:55:00.000+08:00

新年快乐！！！！！

back at home.. so early right.. i oso tink so.. tis morning went si ma lu guan yin temple... as usual lotsa & lotsa of pple.. but very organised... so managed to finish praying fast... then proceeded to mouth restaurant for dim sum with auntie... sooooooooooooooooooooo FULL now can... it was nice... hee... then went to temple again at sin ming road... nw back home.. gonna do some work.. really need to complete something today...

anyway joash was cute.. very cute... he really can do 恭喜恭喜 lo... nw whenever he hear new yr song.. both hands will b clenched & he wil jus go up & down.. haha.. bt difficult to catch a video of it.. i m still trying hehe... & finally he can do what i ask him to do.... 'raising his legs high up for me to take off his pants'... haha... i sound so silly right... haha... & nw he is taking his afternoon nap again.. so i better do some work b4 he wakes up... hehe... some photos here.. take a loook...

2008-02-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

feeling much better today... mayb coz of cny... first of all... wishing myself all the best for the coming yr...

went to idac again to hand my insurance.. then went to do my nails in the afternoon.. had crystals on it tis time round.. wanted to do french.. but decided to try it out.. not too bad..

had my reunion dinner jus nw.. at fortune restaurant...auntie was a regular customer there... 13 pax today... total damage... read on & make a guess...

had the dinner in a private room.. coz auntie said.. outside too squeezy & noisy... scare joash cannot take it... pampered sia...

portion of the food was BIG.. as usual had yusheng.. shark fins.. the shark fins is... totally... cannot describe lo... BIG BIG PIECES!!! then the prawns.. 1 person 1 each.. BIG... & the fish!!! the fish!!! it was BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! BIGGGGGGGGGGG until the kitchen din manage to steam the middle part.. had to send bck for steaming again.. but it was very fresh although it was 'thick'... anyway the rest was nice too.. & when the ee fu noodle came.. only 5 people can take it in.. the rest da bao... haha... red bean paste was free.... nice too.. hehe overall... DELICIOUS!! BUT.... EX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so have u guessed the damage???

after dinner.. went to temple with parents.. everything will go well de... it will...

DAMAGE = $1417!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with 17% of coz!!! did u jus faint??? haha...
anyway both aunties din wan my parents to pay.. coz they understand the situation nw.. however... tml's lunch will b shared... coz sooo paiseh already... tml going to chinatown point there to eat... so... update tml bah....

新年快乐!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

luck really isnt on me.... wonder if i had been cast a spell... i really wonder... tats the only thing i can tink of.. things really havent been going smoothly for me... 1 thing after another jus came crashing down on me.. anything can happen any day any time...

1st matter.. god.. i have not done anything bad to anyone.. not at all for the past 20 over years.. i kept telling myself that things do happen for a reason.. tats what everyone have been telling me... but y do u let me suffer 心死 and 心碎 within a yr.. i had nvr knew that both will happen to me.. at least not b4 1+ yr ago... y do u let me know abt things after so long... y do u arrange for what happened recently to happen... issit a test? do i really deserve to b treated in this way?

i m really really feeling miserable... ya... pple can say it easily.. ehh take it easy... dun do this lo dun do tat lo... then tis wun happen.. n so on.. but pls also do understand.. its my life.. i have my way of doing things.. like writing my blog.. its my habit of writing down how i feel.. jolly well dun read... some things, its easy to say but its nt easy to do.. esp when i m a girl... 一个把感情看得很重的人。。一个没有防人之心的人。。 mentally being tortured for over 1+ yr... some pple will say or bi la.. who ask u to b like this.. b like tat.. but trust me.. wait till it happens to u... but mayb i really deserved it... coz of 我的豆腐心。。。which i need to change... i dun knw hw i managed to pull thru.. tink coz of my family & SOME wonderful frens i had... frens.. i promised i will b fine.. & i will be.. i will cross over tis.. n start life all over again... thanx for all ur encouragement n company.. u know who u r... thru what had happened to b for the past 1yr.. u really do see who r ur true frens n who isnt.. u really do see whose worth ur effort to do things for them... mayb tats y i m being put to the test...

2nd matter today after sch.. went to bb caltex to wash my car.. abt to move off when tis stupid woman reversed her car WITHOUT checking behind! i saw her car coming towards me & i HORNED HER!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT tat DIDNT make her STOP!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE WENT ON UNTIL SHE BANGED MY CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & the best thing is she REFUSED to ADMIT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she say she nvr hear my horn & whatever whatever she can tink of la...

no experience = lugi.. didnt manage to force her to write down a statement.. so what if i got her particulars.. at the most i can only go idac & report case.. tats all i DID....

I CANT DO ANYTHING TO HELP MYSELF! I KNW ITS ME MYSELF & I BUT I DUN KNOW HOW TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god... can u jus let me move on peacefully..... let me be stronger.... & let me b more hard-hearted...

2008-02-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

back home!!! but big damage again today... went to suntec with linda after sch... jus felt like buying things.. which r wants and not needs... using savings to get it.. dun knw y oso.. jus 1 more time.. pamper myself for 1 more time...

saw tis bag last week when i bought my skirt... so nw it became my bd present.. from mama esther & 'mama' linda... thank you hor.. muack!!!

then bought an ex cardigan from dorothy perkins... sometimes u really seldom see things tat u like... nvr bought so ex b4.... but luckily got 20% discount.. thanx to linda again... pamper a little bit la hor..

then bought a pendant from soo kee.. tis one.. mayb gift from mum?? heh...

cny in 2 days time.. enjoy! everyone...

2008-02-04T10:27:00.000+08:00

some place where i really wished i could have gone to... but... i cant.....

2008-02-03T13:32:00.000+08:00

woke by linda early in the morning............... to go market.... haha.... dragged myself up lo... went to cheng san market... met her mum & sis there.. had century egg porridge & raw fish... sooo nice... then they went market to buy vege & meat to store for new yr... then went back to her mum's hse... coz her mum had to settle the 'food' for her.. hehe... then while coming home... went to hougang there to buy the nice nice carrot cake... haha... share la share.. we shared... & nw... boring time... tv is boring too...

lotsa thoughts just appeared on my mind again.... esp today.....

sadzzzz.....

2008-02-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

full day out today... no work done.. sianz... haha... went to facial today... then to poly fren's bbq at coasta sands pasir ris... jus came back not long... pathetic... only the few of us haha... bt enjoyed too... played bingo game & i got twice bingo!!! so i got 2 prizes... but... haha.... both the prizes belong to the same category... i will not go into the details.. haha... i wanted the mushrooms!!! mario mushrooms!!! there were 4!!! but i din get any... sadzzz.... heh....

tml mus do some work lo... really!!!!

2008-02-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

away from home for a few days... bck to sengkang for a few days... mood at home really isnt very good... jus taking a break... things will be better when i get bck bah... hope so...

2008-02-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

after today.. i do believe that u wun b very lucky on ur birthday.. haha.. first... i couldnt sleep for the whole of last night! coz the procedure for today's presentation jus went over & over & over again in my head...

then.. when i started presenting... haiz.. it was a flop la.. right in the beginning.. i lazy to say the details... bt luckily it did go on smoothly... & thanx to pple who encouraged me & told me that i wasnt tat bad...

after tat.. the day went fine... went to orchard after sch... meeting frens for dinner... & i dun knw what went over me again.. i actually went to buy a levis demin skirt! which is expensive!! whats wrg?!! buying myself a present on my birthday??? haha... mayb bah... anyway had dinner at sushi tei.. stayed there till they close... m still very very full nw... & guys.. thanx for the cake.. i enjoyed myself tonight though i do feel kinda sad... but i really hope all ur wishes for me will come true... & what i wished too... coz we LAO YU SHENG!!! so all of us shld have good luck!!! yeah! oh ya.. & marcus... thank u & cousin for the prezzie... :)

2008-01-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

i had a bad hair day today!!! coz u knw y... I OVERSLEPT!!!! first time in my life.. i woke & got out of the house within 5 mins!!! was supposed to wake at 630 coz i had a 830 class... & this class have presentations going on from now till end of course.. & i CANT b late for tis tutor! really lo.. first time in my life i rushed till like tat... if it were other lessons.. i might still b able to have a quick shower b4 i leave.. haha...

very luckily... i OPENED my eyes suddenly... for 5 secs.. i was still tinking to myself... y is the sky so bright... i JUMPED up Looked at the clock & it showed 7.50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was like.. SHIT!!!

then i quickly went to brush my teeth & asked my mum to call linda immediately coz i knew she shld b at the busstop waiting for me... then i changed & dashed out of the house...

LUCKILY there wasnt a massive jam like last week... & i reached the class at 8.25!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... paying for car park fees again... can u imagine! this is the first time when i cut & cut & cut lanes... haha...

anyway y did i oversleep??? thanx to my lovely phone.. i dun knw what happen to it.. but it simply SHUT me OFF & REFUSED TO ON AGAIN!!! went to the service centre during break today.. willl get it back soon... & the thing i NEED to do NEXT is to BUY AN ALARM CLOCK! coz i realised DUN RELY on PHONE!!!!!!!!!!

tml got a test.. nO time to study coz prepare for presentation... then thurs is my presentation.. & i have not decided whether i wan to do A or B... arghhhhhhh.............. SaVe Me...................... cant wait for cny to come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-27T10:55:00.000+08:00

i knw i wun b happy celebrating my bd tis yr... for 20 over yrs.. tis is the worse bd tat i am ever going thru.. i knw i sound pessimistic... but u all dun understand de... really... but i will try my best to try & do the things u all ask me to do de.. TrY..........

but i m lucky i still have frens asking if i wanna go out... so i will still go out... coz i dun wanna stay at home.. coz it feels much much worse n painful... sometimes.. u cant even trust ur own family.... mum jus cant understand tat its so so sooo difficult to find that trust back... partly coz i nvr told her everything tat happened too & so it seems to be my fault as usual... she even cried in front of me.. i actually felt so angry...

on the same day its my presentation.. i really hope everything goes well for me..

pray for me... stand by me..

2008-01-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

did a confrontation in front of my poly frens today.. finally confession coz of evidence.. i thank god for giving me a chance to find out... although its too long a time.. but at least i did find out..

really cant describe what i m going thru.. really.. no one will ever understand what i had been going thru for more than a yr... no one will ever.. i thank god for not giving me the feel of dying yet.. for this period of time.. but it did give me the feeling of guys cant b trusted at all... its farr tooo scary to me already... i m really freaking out...

finally its the end of everything.. the end... as much as i din wan it to b.. it did.. sometimes i ask y is this happening to me... but... i knw i cant do anything... coz god made it tis way for me.. everything happens for a reason.. which i wun b able to know...

i jus wan to get on with my life peacefully.. i have lotsa things on hand with me nt being able to concentrate at all & i jus hate myself for being like tat.. i jus need to pull myself back on to the right track...

2008-01-26T10:50:00.000+08:00

i m seriously gonna suffer from a nervous breakdown soon.. i dun knw how much longer i can take tis... its affecting my work now...

the truth shall be revealed soon...

2008-01-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

tis post is for u knw who...

if u got the guts to do such illegal stuff...

have the guts to admit it...

i was told to report to police.. but i din wan to blow things up.. i m still giving u a chance & waiting for u to confess...

AccUSEd...

2008-01-24T21:20:00.001+08:00

real upset... being accused of something which i nvr did or say tis morning... went to class tis morning... put my bag on the floor at the usual place.. went out to look for linda.. when i cme back.. nigel was sitting at the back & i jus casually asked.. 'how come u r sitting here' coz normally he sat with me n fren... he pointed to R.. so i walked in front asking R 'ehh how come u sitting here' & she said coz she & joan realised tat the tutor will sit behind & they did not wan to sit with him.. i said 'ehh hw can like tat' with me still smiling away... R did suggest tat she wanna change back but i said 'nvm la sit already'..

then i went out of class again.. was jus standing outside the class.. & i even smiled at R when she turned & lookd at me thru the glass pane...

went back to class & realised indhu was sitting on my place... dun understand y too.. but when i went over.. i realised that there wun b enuff seats for me n fren.. so i jus took my bag & walked to the back where the tutor is sitting...

then when fren came, tutor hinted that there werent enuff seats.. so i told fren tat.. we move IN FRONT to the first table then.. so we sat there... coz today is presentation.. so the presenter would prefer us to join other tables... so i asked fren to sit with them AS i knw there wun b enuff seats for me anyway.. i joined ANOTHER table...

jus when lesson is going on.. i realised tat R started crying... din realised what was said in between... then after class... i realised... i was accused of scolding R & saying 'Y r u doing this AGAIN!' ........... i totally din remember tat i said tat... & i really din felt tat i was harsh COZ i do knw whatever i said to her.. i was smiling away & i even say NVM when she said she wanted to change back...

i was real real real upset.. becoz more & more pple knew coz she cried again when she went to the canteen... & i was jus being accused of something which i nvr do... real upset... i m already frustrated enuff with my own stuff & tis gotta happen.. & its jus a minor thing... MAYBE it was a misunderstanding but i really HATE the feeling of being accused...

pple who knew me.. shld knw i dun jus throw my temper at my frens tat easily unless u really got the ability to make me damn upset... if u dun knw that.. then mayb u r nt my fren after all... & before u jump into any conclusions tinking tat i M MAKING A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT.. mayb u shld have came & asked for my side of the story first alright??

bt jus had a talked with R... things r ok nw.. whats over is over.. dun dwell on it...

2008-01-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

mood is bad... sooo bad.. dun knw y... jus feel soooo uncomfortable... helpppppppp.............

2008-01-20T01:42:00.000+08:00

went jay's concert jus nw.. so so ooooooooooooooooo nice can.. i m already missing it when i stepped out of the stadium.. i regretted.. i dun knw y i nvr bring cam oso.. coz i tot i will just enjoy the singing... the meixiang even better still.. she brought cam BUT she left it in my car!!!!!! & she was lazy to go get it !!!! arghhhhhhhhh........... so regret can.. i nvr bring my CameraMan along tonight!!!! argh argh! if nt i would have lotsa lotsa nice pics... haha... so i got no choice but to take it using my phone.. quality is of coz nt as good as cam.. bt jus view it ba.. sui bian la hor..

i know quality really bad la.. bt no choice... what to do...

after tat went supper with meixiang at newton... argh... reach there liao then my cameraman call me to eat dou hua.. i soooo wan to eat can but u a bit late la.. nxt time can call earlier or nt... haha.... stop eating will u xiuxiu!!

enuff of enjoyment for the day... do some work tml xiu!!!

2008-01-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

i m back... after being MIA for some time... thanx for ur concerns, my frens.. i m fine.. no worries...

spent quite a lot these 2 days.. bought new yr dress.. bras again... at robinsons... mango top.. finally i bought from mango.. then tis morning went OG & i bought levis jeans!! finally i can wear the lady's style le!!! so happy can... u all wun understand de la.. heh... then got 20% rebate so i got 2 pairs of shoes.. so happy lo... gotta stop spending le...

purpose to go bugis tis morning was to pray.. end up bought things at OG.. prayed today.. & qiu qian oso... i felt much better after praying.. hope my qian is gonna come true.. hope everyone will have a good yr ahead... the yr of the rat i mean...

gotta start working on my assignments real soon... got a presentation on my bd can! but its good la.. after presentation i can go celebrate my bd!! erm... with who ah... dun knw... whos available?? pls date me la... can enjoy my cny without having to worry abt presentation too... then soon... practicum is coming... which i m definitely not looking forward to.. 4 weeks more to all my due dates for assignment... buck up xiu!!!

oh ya.. dad is coming bck tonight from bkk! yeah!!!

2008-01-11T12:11:00.000+08:00

xiu.. u gotta buck up.. really... wake up from ur dreams!!!

2008-01-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

ZerO eXpEctAtiOn bRinGs zErO dIsApPoInTmEnT.. HoW maNy CaN dO iT???

2008-01-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

2008-01-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

this photo shld b up last week on anita's actual day.. bt i tink sent in too late le.. only managed to shw it today... ah heng call me early in the morning to tell me.. hw cme anita on newspaper ah.. haha... it occupied the biggest space lo!! haha...

its signed off by marcus... scolded by me.. bt he said he signed off as ace@wrk bt dun knw y they only post as marcus... bt its ok la... hope both of u will stay happy 4ever k... :)

2008-01-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

just came back from marcus's chalet at sembawang... dad waited for me again... hopped into my car... went to park the car with me.. & walked home together.. thanx dad...

y m i so late??????????? becoz ... i oso dun knw y today just 1 cup of vodka... makes me headache... its not the usual case lo!!! anyway jian was massaging my head for me.. bt it jus doesnt seem to get well haha.. rested there for quite some time... watched them played cards.. then when my headache is gone... i came home.. journey was kinda scary.. coz there ulu ulu one.. when i walked to my car.. i was erm... so scare tat i might see something tat i dun wanna see.. becoz theres NO LIGHTS... i slowly walked to my car... scare to on my headlights becoz in front is ALL TREES!!!!!!!!!! bt luckily i m home... safely.. haha...

lotsa feelings came over me jus nw.. dun knw hw to describe.. i m jus not feeling good... esp after i drank tat vodka... lying on the bed.. eyes closed... haiz...

anyway... wl brought jackson along today.. girl.. i can see tat both of u r really loving.. guess he is really good to u... tats a good thing.. hope u will b happy 4ever... dun worry abt bringing him to our outings k... & dun wry abt me k... :)

oh ya.. forgot to say.. happy birthday gor... my bro's bd today hehe... mine's coming soon too! pple whos reading.. dun pretend u dun knw k... ask me out la k... boredzzzz... & i m waiting to get the gift tat i wan hor.... from you.... hehe... dun pretend.. if nt i go bombard ur blog!!!

2008-01-05T13:26:00.000+08:00

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... finally something to b happy abt... i got my DS card le........... loaded games in BUT to realise cannot play........... remember student telling me need software.. haha.... went to the net to search.. then nxt error... hardware not compatible... searched for error msg again... haha.. realised tat i was erm... silly? haha... put chinese version in instead haha... finally got it done... bt realised tat the games erm... in jap?? haha... gotta find some eng version ones... hehe... but tis jus comes in handy.. coz i will have 5 hrs of break every tuesday!!!!! hehe... linda will b so happy too!!!!!

yesterday helped marcus to get some things for his chalet.. went to collect the psp & sent him to chalet... had a treat from him at yacht club... 3 people 80 woh.... kinda ex.. bt nice... i miss the cereal prawns... later going to his bbq... b maid again.. gotta get some things for him b4 i go.. bt ok la since i sooo free at home... haha.. he very happy lo... got new psp to play with... haha... bt i play first la.. its with me nw!!! i m going to load whatever i wan inside! haha... but erm.. i dun knw where to find games.. i only knw my ds games.. haha... so i jus load songs bah...

2008-01-04T12:34:00.001+08:00

i m in a very bad bad mood... & i mean a very bad one..

cant u pple jus stop doing tis to me?????????????

whats is wrg with me exactly????????????????????

& whats wrg with u pple?????????????????????????

its jus sooo difficult to put on a smiling face...

2008-01-03T23:53:00.000+08:00

会呼吸的痛
梁静茹

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

2008-01-03T10:58:00.000+08:00

things arent going well............. at home........ & .......... sigh.......

sch reopens in few days time............ portal cant log in..... dun knw hws my timetable...

jus feel so sianzz.......

mum once again.. did what she always did when she have probs.. made me confused all over again.. haiz.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................

i need to tink...

nEW StuFF...

2007-12-31T14:16:00.001+08:00

had some new stuff over the past week.. got a new watch for christmas.. liked the color very much... thank you... :)

& i got myself a new phone.. actually wanted to get the one same as linda... which is HTC TyTnII... already reached there liao.. then i was deciding bet tat & sony w960i.. & in the end.. i decided to get the sony one coz its really much slimmer & i tink i m more used to sony phones... & i tink luckily i bought it.. coz after using it for a few days.. i tink i m really too lazy to use pda... haha... oh ya.. mus thank marcus.. coz he said buy tis better... must thank him coz he complain already haha haha....

BuSY WeEKeNd..

2007-12-31T13:59:00.000+08:00

had a very busy weekend... finally ended... very very very tired but i really really really enjoyed myself A LOT!!!

went to anita's hse on sat night.. after wrking & doing manicure & packing stuff.. getting ready the stuff to sabo jian.. hehe... went to PS b4 tat.. to get linda & my new phone... by the time we got it.. we reached her hse around 11... then went to collect blender from linda... came back to prepare the stuff for the nxt day... only managed to sleep around 1+... 330am wake up le... anita was already doing her makeup... jian was supposed to be here at 5am... BUT he was LATE... must b do it on purpose one... anyway had fun saboing them....
went to changi boardwalk to take pics... then back to both places to 'jing cha'.... then finally 12+pm we had some time to sleep... but 230pm wake up again.. to bathe.. coz makeup artist coming at 3pm... then went to the restaurant to set up & prepare everything... me & marcus was the emcees for the night.. i was sooooooo scare can... first time.. pple who knows me shld knw tat.. i m erm... shy? hahah.. & i got stage fright de!!!! but luckily everything went out smoothly... had my fav fav OR NI!! the rest of the dishes were nice too.. esp my fav cereal prawns!!! so nice!!! bt i nvr take pics... haha... paiseh to take.. but or ni cannot dun take!!! haha..

after the dinner.. anita got the jie meis to stand in front of the stage.. as usual... see who gets the bouquet of flowers..... & erm... she wanted me to get it & i got it... she was crying & hugging me when i got the flowers.. look the the pic.. both our eyes are red... she said a lot of things to me as she knew what happened for the past 1 yr.. okok girl.. i knw i knw.. dun worry k...
dinner ended happily... BUT both were HIGH le... anita was talking loudly & rubbishing liaoz... she was hugging me & crying again & again.. she really feels it for me.... she was really feeling very sad & worried for me.. but dun worry girl.. i m fine & i will be happy oki... then jian still kinda sober i tink... but he too was worried for me.. told me some stuff which i will definitely remember... thanx jian...

after that.. followed them back to their hse first.. coz gotta help to bring back the stuff.. coz they cannot make it liao.. cant even walk properly... bt reaching home.. jian was ok le.. bt anita ... erm... so unglam... pics with marcus.... we will have a good laugh someday k.. hehe...

then proceeded home le!!! reached home at 1+am... dad was waiting for me... so poor thing... thx dad!! :)

i really really enjoyed myself!! P.S. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!

2007-12-28T16:14:00.000+08:00

went to see doc jus now... coughing & coughing... actually i tink can cure myself one la.. by jus drinking my cough mixture & mum's special drink.. but it might take a longer time... bt i have no time le!!! today is friday le!! i will b very busy over the weekend... i cannot fall sick like what happen the other time.. if nt i sure shack one.. so i gotta go see lo.. bt guess what.. aiyo.. these 2 times of medical fees.. last time was $42.. today was $56!!!! my heart sooo pain can.... & i jus topped up my cash card yesterday... $50!! over the weekend still gotta spend a sum of money... pocket hole so big.. i gotta mend it soon...

SHoPPinG..

2007-12-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

oh ya forgot to update abt today... isetan private sale again!!!!! marcus last min fly me aeroplane.. so i went ahead to meet linda there.. anita was suppose to b going oso.. bt she was sooooooooooo late lo... haha.. anyway... totally broke now... what did i buy... hmm...

bought 2 bras.. coz guess what.. my fav bra i tink.. was stolen by someone!!!!!!!! first thing i moved here.. i lost my bra!!! most prob kena stolen by someone at the corridor.. all mum's fault!! put it outside to dry... *faint* hw can she put triumph bra outside!! haha... so today first thing i reached there was to go upstairs n search for it.. luckily i found it!!!! n i bought 2!!!

bought shoes for anita's wedding too... n facial products lo... burnt a hole in the pocket... left isetan as linda gotta go have lunch with frens.. met her after tat at chinatown.. she wanted to get perfume for her hubby.... money spent again... bt enjoyed myself a lot today.. although i m kinda sad too.. bt still.. i m fine.. :)

sch reopening nxt nxt week... but 2 busy weekends again... 1 is anita's wedding... another 1 is someone's bd.. need my help again.. bt as usual.. 我是好人。。。 so good fren.. of coz will help u la.. treat me nicer k?? hehe...

TriP to gEnTinG & KL...

2007-12-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

finally i got the time to post... went to genting & kl over the weekend... suppose to go with meixiang de.. bt thanx to her... her parents got damn pissed with her for going.. coz they say dec raining.. dangerous.. then somemore the nxt day was 'dong zhi'.. must eat dang yuan.. so she was forced to give up her seat!!!! so ended up.. i gotta go ahead with 2 guys!! who bullied me all the way thruout the trip... bt anyway overall i had fun.. without them taking good care of me!!! hmmph!!!

enjoyed the theme park the most.. stayed there most of the time in genting.. haha.. went to casino but can u believe it! none of us played!!!! not at all!!!! xiang was saying.. go genting dun go casino go for what.. haha.. true hor.. haha..

anyway kl was nth much.. jus shopping & shopping... went to sungei wang, klcc, times square & chinatown.. the 2 guys obviously didnt protect me... haha.. only stayed there for 1 day.. n guess what... i didnt get myself anything tis time round! the guys bought though... n of coz marcus bought the most?? as usual.. he is so hiao... haha... dun come beat me ok marcus... haha...

but 1 bad thing thruout the trip... suppose to reach sg at 8+.. coach started moving at 3+ .. within half hr.. it BROKE DOWN!!! we gotta wait at the petrol station while waiting for another bus to pick us up... end up.. came a lousier bus!!!! n so we ended up only reaching sg almost 10... sianz... anyway thank u guys.. i really had fun for the whole trip.. esp marcus.. thanx hor.. u knw it...oh ya! the food there... din take much pics of the food.. totally forgotten abt it.. only had these.. hehe.. had kim gary at sungei wang.. its cheap can!!! n the drink was soooo nice.. marcus went back the last day jus to get the drink! vivo got 1 branch bt ex lo... sianz.. haha

lastly, gotta thanx the pple who had kept me company all these while... for the past yr.. comforting and helping me thruout.. thank u sooooooo much pple.. u know who u r...
happy new yr to everyone.. hope it will b a better yr for everyone!

2007-12-21T14:27:00.001+08:00

i tink i m dumb.. really dumb... i feel it.. i know it.. i m... but i dun wish to b dumb..

2007-12-21T10:58:00.000+08:00

haha sooooo funny can... realised tat soooo many frens r really so concerned abt me.. all rushing to intro guys to me... hey pple... hold on can... slowly... haha.. relax... 2008 will be a better yr i guess... i HOPE... pray for me bah.. pray for everyone... hopes everyone has a wonderful year ahead...

oh ya... merry xmas to all!!!

aH gOng's WeDdIng..

2007-12-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

just reached home.. went to ah gong aka yeming's wedding at the oriental... i m so late home coz i wanted to see if he gets drunk.. bt din see any good show.. haha..

picture taken by some lousy pple... weixiang... can u see the cameraman there!!!! argh... waiting for ah gong to send me then... haha..
so lousily taken right!!!!

anyway b4 i went.. took a few pics with joash.. he is getting cuter n cuter day by day... love him so much... haha... he is still the best!!

2007-12-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

jus came home frm shopping with linda.... spent money again.... then results out today.. jus checked.. sianz... but what to do.. me n linda.. 2 sad buddies.. haha..

sch reopening soon.. so sad.. hope i will enjoy the rest of the holidays...

2007-12-13T13:01:00.000+08:00

after 3 days of 'tonging'... haha.. tried to cure myself with my own methods.. really couldnt stand it anymore.. last night was torturous... couldnt sleep... went to see doc today & it cost me $42!!!!! so expensive!! nvr see so expensive b4... weekday somemore.. but... its becoz i got lotsa medicine lo... doc showed me my throat.. & i had tis white thingy there.. he said its 'nong'!!!! omg!! haa.. no wonder i couldnt cure myself.. gotta finish the antibiotics which i hate! bt what to do.. gotta get well soon lo.... pple.. take care k.. so many pple falling sick around me...

shld i b happy?? i dun know.. 我很想开心可是却开心不起来。。。

ThE eNd..

2007-12-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

i broke off le.. 9 yrs and 3 mths.. i had thought it through thoroughly..

its no one's fault.. mayb its jus tat time is up.. fate decides so..

thanx for everything... i mean it..

everything, i shall leave it to fate now...

all the best to u too..

thanx to all the frens who had been so concerned abt us.. helped us so much.. thank you.. i really appreciated it.. but sometimes.. only the 2 knows best...

we will move on.. well..

2007-12-11T17:03:00.000+08:00

fever... 38.4 ... physically.. mentally... nt right...

i mus tell myself.. I MUST B HAPPY! quoted frm meixiang..

hey girls... thanx for being there for me always k.. love ya pple... muacks!!!

2007-12-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

as usual.. went to buy lunch with sharon.. on the way back.. started drizzling while walking back... sharon said.. 'no la i tink it will stop' i said.. 'nOoooooooo the rain drops r big! it might jus start a heavy rain!!' then we walk faster.. faster.. faster.. i see heavy rain from afar.. n i said 'sharon!!! take off ur jacket!!!' haha.. then she took off her jacket for me.. she felt paiseh n didnt wanna use.. so i used lo.. i was sick lo.. nt yet recover n now i gotta b caught in the rain..

at the traffic light.. the rain came pouring down!! it was heavy!! very heavy!! n the light was still RED!!! then i 'ran' as fast as i can.. carrying the food.. jacket.. n afraid of falling down.. haha.. n sharon was behind... taking her own sweet time.. haha...

then we reached.. she was drenched.. so m i.. coz her jacket was useless... haha... got holes!!! haha.... hope i wun fall sick...

whats happening to me these days?!? so confused... :'(

2007-12-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

siCk... & sAd...

pAin..

2007-12-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

oh ya.. forgot to mention.. got a big bruise on my head today... wanted to get another p6 booklet today & it was on the floor.. below the counter.. so i bent down n took.. then i forgot.. i jus RAISED my head!!! *BANG* i hit the counter! for a moment, i went sorta blackout lo.. coz it was really really hard.. then immediately applied zambuk on my head... jus remembered coz its painful nw... sob sob....

having sore throat since morning.. then stomach oso nt feeling tat well now... really bad day... sianz...

2007-12-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

lets all move on... thanx for everything...

2007-12-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

i just saw tis on my fren's nick..

'sometimes letting go is HARD ... but it is EASIER than holding on to something that isn't there'

do you agree?? feel free to leave comments..

2007-12-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

my fren.. i m really disappointed with u.. does tat mark the end of the grp's frenship with u?? we dun wish to, bt it seems so the case now..

even if u assume, i guess mayb u shld have the initiative to contact us too.. to ask abt it.. i m sure a sms wun kill u.. unless u didnt wanna knw at all...

an advice for u, u have to learn how to cope with handling ur r/s and ur frens..

nvr felt like tat towards u b4.. but.. u really disappoint us...

anyway something to be happy about.. joash can sit on the walker le... so cute lo.. every morning when i wake up.. first thing is to go look for him.. coz he always wakes earlier than me..

every evening when i come home.. first thing i will look for him too... his smile really makes my day... no matter how sad i m...
dec le.. 1 yr almost gone again.. lotsa n lotsa things had happened.. frenship, r/s, family.. i really hope nxt yr will be a better yr.. for me.. n for everyone of u.. let's move on.. to a better yr..

2007-11-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

xiuxiu is very fine & well & will b happy too.. really.. thanx to m, m, a, l, s, t, w for being there.. love ya all.. muacks!!!

2007-11-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

a close fren jus told me tis ... 命里有时终须有, 命里无时莫强求。its true.. but.. hw many can do it.. i m happy that i have frens around me.. happy to have u pple around me.. thanx for everything & staying by my side.. i really appreciate it.. no matter what decision i make.. i knw u pple will b there for me always.. muacks!

2007-11-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

i really wish i knew what i need to do & what i wan to do & how i wan to do.. i do.. i m sad.. very upset..

ContinUed..

2007-11-25T17:58:00.000+08:00

Day 3: today can wake slightly later.. coz only need to b there at 1130... went to pick yingsin up at 11... reached and proceeded to listen to instructions.. hiaks... today was a hi-tea reception at RTC.. food was not bad... bt din refill enuff i guess.. some pple were like.. ehh.. no more.. n the waiter said no more refill.. twice only i tink... finally its done.. both families r real tired le.. met up with sec schs frens too... although its tiring.. bt i m sure we all had fun!!

time to update joash blog already.. pple complaining liao... hehe...

MinHuI's WeDdInG...

2007-11-24T16:29:00.000+08:00

just came back from the 2nd day of minhui's wedding celebrations.. sooooo tired... i almost got into an accident jus nw... dozed off.. & the car swayed to the left.. argh...

anyway.. the celebrations started yesterday.. .

Day 1: woke up at 5+ to get ready & go to her house at bukit panjang from sengkang!!! it was also the day where i was suppose to move back to yew tee!! had fun in the morning haha.. played until 10+ ... nvr followed to the groom's side coz i gotta rush home to cross tis 'huo lu' .. requested by mama.. so i went home... then after yingsin sms me.. saying they r on their way back.. i went to collect cake..coz its minhui's younger sis bd as well..

so went back & continued with photo taking & buffet! then go home to start unpacking lo... din have photos for the gown... nvr took out my cam... *sad*Day 2: woke up early again.. today gotta go all the way to tampines.. today is the indian & malay costume one.. picked ling ling first b4 we went.. then morning was the solemnisation.. she wore the indian gown.. then around 12 ling gotta go airport.. so i fetched her there.. accompanied her for a while.. b4 i went bck to the CC... i lost my way.... i tot i wouldnt.. bt i did.. haha.. only managed to reach around 3pm.. & jus nice.. the reception starts!!! & she changed again!! hehe... she is soo pretty can... bt i tink she is really tired... coz theres a Day 3 tomolo.. & i gotta wake early again... full day for me again... but i tink she is much more tired... smiling & smiling all day long... hehe.. bt i tink i really had fun... congrats to her.. & all the best!& 1 more thINg.. i tink i put on weight.. since i stayed at linda's hse... gotta start losing again.. coz more weddings coming up !!!

BaNgKoK tRiP!!!

2007-11-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

Before I started my day… my trip… my ‘auntie’ came.. always… every trip… but luckily I enjoyed a lot too…

Day 1:
Reached bkk around 3pm… Winston (short form win)waited for us at the airport & brought us to his house.. big house ley.. hehe… a new experience.. always stayed in hotel whenever we go overseas… tis is the first time… good experience too.. after putting our luggage at his place.. we went to mbk, siam area, Win bought us to somboon seafood restaurant to eat… hehe.. nice food.. cheap food.. we had prawns, vege, oyster egg, crab after we finished all these.. we waited for the last dish patiently… until Winston started to ask the waiter.. then he came back with a bowl of chilli.. after some clearing up.. we realized tat Win had said the wrong thing.. which sounded similar to the fish we ordered… haha.. created a joke out of it… & his face went SUPER RED… haha.. so funny lo… treat from him for the night…

Then after tat.. we went to suan lum night market… xiang bought some things… then we proceeded to foot massage… first time we went to was too popular… fully booked.. then we went to another one… erm.. it was a funny one.. first, me n Win went in first.. then first thing was suppose to wash our feet.. there was a basin on the floor & it had pebbles in it.. so I put my feet in it & then Win shouted ‘NO! NO!’ it scared me! & I ‘jumped’ up immediately! & said ‘SORRY SORRY’ to the lady… then Win said ‘Ya Ya its to put ur feet in one’ the pple there luffed at us lo… they guessed that I was tricked by him lo… argh…. Then we started the massage.. halfway thru… while my eyes were closed… suddenly.. heard a sound.. the lady massaging for me FELL!!! Then her colleagues were luffing at her.. we ALL TRIED not to luff at her… then she continued to massage for me.. but she cant stop luffing lo.. she giggled & giggled until I buey tahan I luff out lo!!! & the rest started luffing too… So paiseh… haha…

back at home.. got news from Linda that she needed to reply a not very nice email from sch.. so I checked mine.. & I got it too!!!! On our trips!!! We gotta deal with tis!! So argh!!! So while me replying the mail… the rest started watching ‘Meet the Robinsons’ … tat was day 1.

Day 2:
Woke up, bathe & started our journey to CTC… xiang bought quite a lot of things.. heng too… hehe… after that, we went to eat suki buffet… then we went to mbk again.. wanted to buy bra… & the guys went to arcade to play haha… went to swenson’s to eat ice-cream… then back home to put all the things down… rested for a while.. b4 we proceeded to Chinatown.. xiang wanted to get some birds’ nest for his SIL as she had jus given birth… ate at nan xing.. eat fried rice… crab tang hoon.. oyster egg again.. erm still got what ah… cant really remember… as usual I have a short term memory but I remember we ate birds’ nest!!! Treat from me & xiang… then we went to patpong.. to have the experience u knw.. haha.. colleagues been telling me.. hw it was.. hw gross it is.. bt we wanted to experience.. but.. we kena chopped… the person say come come see see .. only pay for drinks.. BUT.. we end up paying quite a bit each.. tat place.. u only need to go once.. haha… although its ex.. bt at least its an experience lo… da kai yan jie…

after tat went to foot massage again.. back to the same place as we went to… this time.. haha.. xiang took the girl who massaged for me.. when she saw us.. she immediately luff le… haha…. Back at home.. watched dvd b4 we sleep.. tis time we watched music & lyrics… Tat was day 2…

Day 3:
We woke up to see tat Win was not around… he went alone to the market to buy prawns back & cooked for us lo while we slept… so paiseh… after that.. went to temple.. as xiang wanted to pray… then after tat we went to platinum shopping mall… heard that there are a LOT of shops there.. & 1 day wasn’t enuff.. but.. I tink we nvr really thoroughly walked the whole place… finished within a few hours.. xiang again bought more things than me… haha.. but got quite a good bargain with the t shirts that we bought… & she bought an expensive bag… haha…

After tat… swenson’s ice-cream AGAIN! Aiyo… after that.. went opposite.. pratunum.. to walk… then we headed to foot massage… tis time.. we went to another one… half the price… & it was equally good… except that.. my shin was slightly painful after tat..

Then coz we nvr really eat the whole day & the guys were kinda hungry.. we settled down at this stall for chicken rice & satay… then while trying to flag cab… heng saw tis ‘zhu jiao’ stall.. & he suggested to try it out… & the guys went to eat ‘zhu jiao’ rice again… I only ate 2 mouths.. xiang didn’t finish too.. we shared… then we went home to rest… & win cooked curry… so full can…

The girls bathed while the guys played game again… or watch tv… haha… then later at night.. we went to have a drink.. at I dun know where oso.. bt we went to this Route 66… we had vodka shots in the beginning.. then called for drinks individually too then we started playing games before we went to eat jiao zi… guessed everyone was hungry le… haha.. I didn’t eat… after they ate.. heng fell dozed off… SUDDENLY he stood up, holding his mouth.. I knew it was time.. haha.. he walked towards the toilet but before he reached, ‘MERLION!!!’ he vomited!!!! On the floor!!! In the restaurant!!! Haha… he was sober lo… then he covered somemore.. walked towards the toilet.. b4 he reached… ‘MERLION AGAIN!!’ haha haha… then he continued to go to the toilet to b merlion… after tat.. we went back home… haha… everyone was soon back to normal… THEN.. we watched DVD AGAIN!! Win suggested this Chinese movie.. called ‘ai qing dun know what zhuan yi’, theme song by Chen YiXun tat song lo. The story is similar to ‘Click’, we were all waiting to watch a nice show.. coz ‘Click’ was good… then.. all dozed & woke, dozed & woke.. when we r done with the show.. 3 of us luffed.. coz it was NOT NICE LO… it was LAME.. haha.. win started saying ‘then why u all nvr say earlier!!!’ haha.. funny sia.. then me n xiang went to sleep le.. dun knw what both of them do after tat.. hehe.. tats day 3…

Day 4:
Woke up early.. last day le.. quite sad.. Win had some work to do.. so we played PS2.. while waiting for him.. he bought this ‘jackass’ game… haha.. as usual.. I BROKE HIS RECORD!!! Haha happy sia…

Internet connection was down.. he couldn’t do his work.. so we went to buy seaweed first.. jus outside his house.. I have orders for seaweed & crackers.. & 3 of us bought 1 whole box!!!! Then we headed to mbk again.. haha.. xiang wanted to do manicure. Bt end up nvr do lo.. we went to coca restaurant for buffet… SO CHEAP la… haha… after tat we went to arcade… to play games… haha.. so old le.. yet still do such things…. Played the basketball & Daytona… & we took neoprints too!!! Their neoprint so funny can… no need to input money one.. got 1 lady standing there.. waiting to press button for u… and u can cancel the shots if u dun like it.. and u can oso have different poses.. haha.. around same price as sg lo.. then we started making funny faces & poses while waiting for it to develop… so bo liao right… then after playing arcade… Swenson’s again!!! Ice-cream again!!! Argh… haha.. 3 consecutive days!!! Then we headed home… Win went for his meeting… so paiseh.. coz at first he say no more meeting.. then end up reached home.. he rushed for meeting again…

Heng continued to play game.. xiang checked her company mails.. while I fell asleep.. again as usual… when I woke up.. Winston is back.. & ready to fetch us to the airport.. he drove his bike.. out again to get a cab in for us… so paiseh…

Anyway.. ate dinner at the airport… everyone was sad… coz we really missed these 4 short days.. 3 of us really really really enjoyed ourselves very much.. Win was a very good host… thanx for everything!!

PaiN.. ItCHy..

2007-11-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

tis is my back... tis is how burnt i m... after 6 days... only today it started to peel... shoulder very pain sia... my back feeling the itch now.. argh... sharon say need anOther week to recover... omg.... argh... what did i do to myself?!?!!!?
what is this ley?? sharon spent the whole afternoon.. doing this... haha...